Thursday, November 20, 2014

The Open Constant

One word occurs to me again and again lately. That word is "consistency." Typically, I turn that word outside of myself, wishing that others be more consistent. Consistent in doing what they say they will do, for their own sake and for others. After all, if there is one thing the Catholic Church brings to the table, it's consistency. Serious consistency.

But in truth, that word "consistency" has hung around my mind not because of anyone else's failings in that regard, but mine. I need to be more consistent. In prayer.

I have written in an open manner about the forms and conditions of prayer, especially as I see prayer in a variety of modes and moods, to varying purposes, etc. But this is OpenCatholic - not merely to be open to otherness, but to be open about what is Catholic. Being open to otherness, to new ideas - to what makes all children of God vitally real and important - is perhaps at the pointy end of the Catholic stick. But the stick itself is being Catholic. Being open about being Catholic.

And being Catholic means prayer. Lots of it, and in form. And that form is, first and foremost, the Rosary. I would say that in terms of importance (meaning efficacy) the Rosary is second only to the Eucharistic celebration in its importance. At this point, I would be comfortable suggesting that, for a Catholic, life without the Rosary would be a kind of living hell, being cut off from a vital and real form of communion with the universal Church.

So, I will certainly continue to write about what I see as vital in the world about me, in people's practices, but I need to be more consistent in what I do, as a Catholic. I need to pray the Rosary. I need that flow in my blood as surely as I need food and air.

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Empty, Free

How do we communicate truth? By defining, illustrating, pointing. By living.

By listening. Sharing. Praying.

Do we communicate for the sake of our ego (to advertise our knowledge) or as a gift? Perhaps our motives inform the outcome.

I want to communicate that since I joined the Catholic church I am a better person, more engaged, kinder, a better listener, less anxious, more giving, more in control.

Also, I take more risks. I am less afraid of failure, lack of success, death.

In short, I believe I have more, and that I give more. How do I communicate this without talking about myself? Because, I know this has to do with God, not with me. Not with me at all.

Not at all. Not one bit. I have nothing to say about myself beyond what I say to myself on occasion, to remind myself what God has done for me, to give praise.

How do I communicate this to be faithful to what I have received?

I do not know, except to write poems, post the occasional blog with this or that observation. I am never so knowing of my emptiness as when God has helped me to be strong and free.